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Some people find me hilarious, or maybe I just think they do. Regardless of which, I think I’m capable of bringing joy and laughter to the masses if given the right viechle, the right opportunity, the right stage.
(Something tells me this isn’t it, blogging that is.)
I may not be a comedian, but I can say rather funny things to entertain those around me. Those who know me well may have experienced this. Those who haven’t yet can expect it tomorrow. Those who read this blog may find yourselves giggling at times for no apparent reason.
Entertainment is my life’s purpose, the movies especially. To entertain is to give people something to think about, laugh about, cry about.
If my words here don’t touch you in one way or another, then I’m not doing it right.
If you don’t care, no one can make you.
First of all, my boss was terrible. I was overworked, underpaid, and most importantly, I wasn’t satisfied that all my hard work resulted in one ginormous goose-egg in the bank.
For those who don’t already know, you guessed right. For the past year or so, I’ve been working for myself in my own company. (yeah, the pictures don’t show up.) I’ve managed to squander a good sum of my dad’s hard earned money, not to mention some of my own. I’ve made a mess of both my personal and professional life and learned a great deal about humility.
This is, however not a letter of surrender.
photo by Mykl Roventine
So, it’s funny that my last post was about being productive. With that said, I’ve been putting off writing this post about my new adventure into a new career for quite a few weeks now. Mostly I was still coming to terms with this reality not really sure I was going through with it, but also, I want to figure out how exactly to explain the reasons behind such a drastic change.
Those of you who’ve been following my other blog in Chinese might know that I’ve been in quite a melodramatic mood as of late. This is partly to do with the state of my current relationship, which is tumultuous to say the least. But it’s also because of the uncertain state of my work situation as I’ve mentioned. Panhandling at the entire world seemed like a good idea at the time when I had no real prospects of making money.
Things have changed.
It’s not that I’m unproductive, but in the past, I’ve found myself with a lot of idle time. When you get things done, you’re left with a sense of emptiness. Like in Memento, once you’re gotten your revenge, what else is there to strive for?
Sometimes, this can drive you mad. You find every excuse possible to delay completing the tasks at hand; you wait for the last possible moment to minimize that loss; you act busy rather than getting busy.
When procrastination rears its ugly head, it’s just like looking into a mirror, because ultimately, there’s only yourself to blame.
photo by Refracted Moments™
Money. Who needs it? I do. You do. So does everyone else.
When you have none, you fantasize about having a ton.
When you have lots, you fantasize about having more.
The truth is, I know I have plenty of knowledge and special skills that are useful to others. I’m willing and ready to work for my financial stability.
My days of being wild are over and it’s time for me to get a real J.O.B..
Here’s my reasoning for why that’s a shame:
Just a quick shout out to my Chinese speaking/reading friends and readers out there. You know who you are. And a reminder to those of you who haven’t checked out my other blog written almost entirely in Chinese. If you enjoy this blog, go check it out. If you don’t read Chinese, do a google translate from Chinese to English and you’ll know what’s up. (In fact that’s how I wrote most of the articles anyways, google translating it back from English to Chinese, saves a lot of time Pinyin typing)
If you still don’t get it, assume that I’m discussing the size of your penis (and giggling) if you’re a guy, or (swooning over) how amazingly attractive and smart you are if you happen to be a lady.
Yeah, I’m a pig, so sue me. (but do so in Chinese if you dare)
I’m a filmmaker. I tell stories. I translate ideas into stories. Capturing the essence of an idea makes it real, gives it life. Ever since college, I’ve always seen myself as an Auteur waiting for my moment to arrive. I’ve since learned that waiting is useless. I have to go get it.
For those of you who’ve read my story, which I’ve also mentioned before, you know that I’m a filmmaker. No, I haven’t made anything you would have seen in theaters yet. But some day, you’ll see. When I’ve got something I’d want you to see, this blog is where you’ll find out about it first, that’s a promise, my loyal fans.